Tuesday, November 22, 2011
It's an excuse to do nothing. But when you don't have time to do nothing it makes it so much worse. All I want to do is crawl into bed and listen to the false voices that tell me I'm worthless. But I absolutely can't. See this is not how I deal with my depression. I usually treat myself like a sick child when I feel the cycle of depression start. But I can't do my usual nothing. I have so much going on. Work is insanely busy. My friends all need me right now. I can't just slip into my bed and do nothing for a day. I just want to sleep. And when I finally can, I just lie there. It's so frustrating! I've never been to a doctor about my depression. I can usually dig myself out of the hole. I'm starting to think I might need to be medicated. I'm just so tired.
Monday, November 7, 2011
Judging. We're all guilty of it. I think it's just a part of being a human being. We strive to be the best we can be, but in order to make ourselves feel better about any trouble we have within ourselves, we lash out by deciding that someone else is living their lives the wrong way or making the wrong decisions. I try so hard not to judge people. Mainly because I have no right to do it. I definitely don't want to be judged on my choices because I have made mistakes. Just as much as anyone else has. I think in the long run, all we have to do is just do the best we can. I think that before we judge anyone else, we should step back and decide how it is going to help the situation. We should just realize that we all have a hard road in front of us. Even if you think the person in front of you is living the good life with no problems, remember everyone is battling their own private battle. Whether it's public or a battle within in yourself, everyone has problems. There is no such thing as a small problem when it is your own. Sometimes you learn from your mistakes, sometimes you don't. I think, in the long run, your troubles and decisions how to handle them is what make life worth living. If everything was puppies and rainbows, you'd never be able to really appreciate life fully. If you never had bad, how can you truly be grateful for the good?